One of the many reasons I love blogging is how easy it is to look back and see where we were a year ago to the day. Many can look thru pictures and see but the fact that I have words/journaling to go with it is so sweet to me.
You can read about 2012 here...
Then 2011 we spent Easter at Disney World...you can read HERE.
And then there was 2010...sadly the Easter we try not to think about, look at pictures from, or even relive the "feelings" we had about what our life was about to be like...Easter 2010
Not that I am some crazy awesome blogger now but I was REALLY terrible back in 2009...ha!
I hadn't started blogging yet so this is all you get from 2008 folks, boring right! LOL!
It's fun looking back and seeing how far we have come. We have grow (in more than one way) so much in the last 5 years. We have seen the Lord work in his AMAZING ways. As each year passed and I grow older the meaning of Easter tugs at the heart strings a bit more. Not that it can't be meaningful at younger ages but I just feel different emotions, different thoughts run thru my head, and I am now teaching littles about the meaning of Easter. (that's a hard task BTW) As Mark and I drove home from my parent's last night we talked about the sacrifice that was made. We discussed the emotions regarding knowing you had allow your son to die so others could live...talk about the ultimate sacrifice. Mark mentioned how without hesitation he would take his life/sacrifice his life for his son/daughter/wife but to imagine having to sacrifice your son's life so everyone else could live...it literally makes me physically ill. We had to stop talking about it. This happens often, we are talking and somehow get to a point in a conversation where we end with a prayer thanking the Lord we aren't there, aren't "in their shoes," or even don't have to think about this or that at the time...and we end it there.
Lately the Lord has been speaking a lot to me. The question "what define's me," has been playing in my head. The world wants us to be defined by stuff, money, "titles," homes, cars, and etc. I am so sick of it. My heart has been so heavy when I realize there are certain areas of my life I put so much time and effort into that isn't needed. I sweat the small stuff, I know I do. It's like I am surrounded by people who care so much about the stuff. Now that I am aware of this, now that I am making a conscious effort to not do this, now that I have so much conviction I get mad, it makes me sick, it makes me sad for people...there are people that constantly want more, are driven by change, and can't just be still.
This Easter carries so much conviction for me. It's a reminder to:
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
It's almost like a refresher of my New Year's Resolution to "SIMPLIFY AND NOT REPLACE."
To be satisfied with less, to not always want more, to be still, and just listen to what the Lord wants to say to me, to us as a family.
My prayer today is you remember the true meaning of Easter and next time you think you are "making a sacrifice" you really take a step back and view from the outside in and think about the one true ultimate sacrifice that was made for YOU!