Saturday, July 31, 2010

It hurts...

I still don't know how I feel about posting about our recent loss. I want this blog to be about our life but I want it to be the true us, though I don't want to create a magnifying glass into Mark and I's personal life. On the other hand I do want to be able to look back and see how far we have come. (I know I kinda rambled, I hope you'll understand what I am saying here)

 Simple sentences is all I have:

It's been 2 months yesterday since the WORST and BEST day of my life occured.
I gave birth to 2 boys.
I brought one home.
One is in Heaven.
I still cry everyday.
We still have both names hanging in the nursery.
It hurts to say his name.
I want to hold him again.
I want to look at his body and rub his hair.
I want to sit in a room with Mark, Wyatt, Ryder, and me...I want to be our family of 4 that we planned for for so long.
I want Wyatt to grow up with his brother.
It hurts my heart to know others have also had to feel this pain.
Yes,  it's a physical, mental, and emotional pain.
It feels like it will never get easier.
Wyatt smiled today, he knows what his mama needs.
Wyatt is a perfect baby.

I know God has plans for us...plans to prosper not to harm....we cling to his WORD daily, without faith in Jesus Christ I could not deal with this pain.

12 comments:

  1. Praying for you guys! The picture of Wyatt smiling is incredible.

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  2. you are amazing! your faith is uplifting and motivating!

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  3. I won't even act like I remotely understand the severity of your pain. As Angie Smith puts it, "The sacred dance of grief and joy." You are experiencing both, and you are developing such a remarkable, incredible faith. I am amazed at your strength and I hurt for your pain. I love you!!! We can talk anytime if you need to.

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  4. I'm so encouraged by your strength, Emily. Love you so much.

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  5. You're courage to conquer each day amazes me and your faith makes mine stronger!

    Many prayers of love and happiness for you and your family!

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  6. I am still praying for your healing. You give so many women strength to continue on aftr a loss. You are a very strong woman.

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  7. I am thinking of and praying for you and your family. Lots of love coming your way!

    As far as what to post or not, I say post whatever is in your heart and helps YOU - after all, it is your blog!

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  8. I don't know what to say. I can't even begin to understand what that feels like, and how much it hurts. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I hope you always find strength to get through your days.
    xoxo

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  9. You are stronger than you know and your faith is key at this point in your life. I know that no words will make it all better, but honestly it does help to talk about it more.

    Many prayers to you and your family.

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  10. You are stronger than you know! I'll be keeping you in my prayers!

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